Emotions Rising

The day has not gone well. Laurie called me last night and her mother's health is going downhill very fast. She asked me to pray that God would take her home soon. I can feel for Laurie. She is my best freiend and has been foir the past thirty-five years. She was adopted by her parents as was her older sister. IF her mother does pass away, there is no way I can be there for her physically to help her through her grief. I do0 not want to be disloyal.

I was watching an episode of Beverly Hills 90210. It seems that now that I am in my late forties, I am more into the show now. I have a great deal of feelings that I need to settle with my parets. They do not want to settle anything and would rather keep everything shoved under "the rug". It is a wonder that they have not tripped over those imaginary piles and broke something. They are not exactly young people anymore. One would think that they would want to clear all their "accounts" and settle everything before they are no longer around. They do not seem to have a desire to do this. IT is a shame-for them. I, on the other hand, wnat to get things out into the light. I want to know the truth. I guess in order to deal with these issues, I will have to get my book out of the mothballs and continue writing. Although the book is a piece of fiction, it does have a string of truth to it.

I feel the only people that would give me what I am looking for-what I need is the two peopoe who started this ride and I need the to come to a screetching halt-without my head going through the windshield. I am so damn frustrated.